Mindless flow of stealing emotions and endless time

So well, what now? What is there to tell? I can start by explaining my lack of posting, with one reason: “I have nothing exiting to tell”. Actually I feel my life passing by, withouth doing anything at all, and I have recently described it as not having anything in my life in control, but my facebook profile, which actually is, rather true. Oh well.. My beginning alcoholism is pretty much in control as well, and I actually considered naming this post “the liver is evil and must be punished” sadly, I have more to tell than the stories about my recent week of drinking and suffering from hangovers. And then I contradicted myself.

This wednesday I’m having my first exam. Chemistry. And only the gods will know how that will work out. You see, I haven’t really spent any time reading yet, which I probably should.. Yea I really should. I’m planning on spending my day at the school tomorrow reading, as I find that a very healthy decision. As you see, I have my next exam at thursday, and the third at friday, and I have read for neither of them yet. But you know. Shit happens. I got drunk.

I really hope to pass physics and chemistry, even though I haven’t really done anything this year, due to laziness and sadness.. You might remember my stress-related depression because of my grandfathers dead, if you’re close enough to me.. But if you don’t, you do now. But if I don’t pass these subjects I have to retake them afterwards, as I need them to get into university.

And feelings, emotions etc? Well, I think I’m in the same emotional rollercoaster as always. But at the moment I’m very easy to touch. I’ve recently read the first two books in the twilight saga, and I have to admit that the same feelings Bella felt, I’ve been feeling. It’s kinda annoying that I don’t seem to distinguish reality and fiction.. I’ll just blame my grandfather as always. That’s is something my grandmother taught me… Always a usable aopoly… *sigh*.. I miss him now, more than ever, and that is neither an apology nor a lie.

And again, I will, tough shortly this time, refer to the retards and morom, who are the only persons to fall in love with me… Though now more rare than ever.

At last! Goodnight folks! With mleancholy I hereby swear to go to bed before sunrise!